terrified of getting close ♥

excuse me, but...i think i have a problem...
i'm terrified of getting close to people...

so, i was talking to one of my 'close friends' last night *sometimes i truly wonder about our closeness* and we got into a pretty heated discussion...
not a fight...
not a disagreement...
just a discussion.

after our conversation was over...i apologized for the possibility of upsetting him...
he said something along the lines of "thats what real talk is about."

my realization?

REAL TALK SCARES ME!

i realized that i am always too caught up in not hurting peoples feelings that i never say what i REALLY think. ive always thought i was a very blunt person...but apparently not...

i'm not entirely sure whether this is a good or bad thing...
but i'm getting to know myself slowly...
i'm learning to ...

breathe.