STOP! if you dont want to read a rant...go elsewhere...

STOP! i'm serious...

oh well, your call...

i'm sick of being human. i KNOW i need God. i KNOW without Him i am nothing. i KNOW that when i mess up one thing...everything else falls behind it.

if i KNOW this then why the crap do i keep thinking that i can do it on my own!?!?!

i finally get all of my marbles in a straight line--my quiet time is wonderful--i'm okay with being single--i'm trusting God with everything...
then i come back here...
my 'home'

and i fail...yet again. i fall... i breakdown and stop doing my quiet time...i get angry at Him for my singleness...i start leaning on myself and what i 'can' do.

why do i do this every time?! every stinkin time... please keep me in your prayers as i get my life back on track...yet again...

"I'll take you back always
And even when your fight is over now
Even when your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
And even when the pain is coming through
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back"
 -Take You Back lyrics --Jeremy Camp

God, teach me to breathe...