You Make Everything Glorious!♥

Today's Collide=Simply Wonderful
Chad spoke of our sins and struggles that keep us from being who God wants us to be...
 my biggest struggle these days?
----Self Esteem

After Chad was through speaking, Sam led us in worship...
low and behold...what do we sing?

YOU MAKE EVERYTHING GLORIOUS -by David Crowder
the lyrics say:
You make everything Glorious.
You make everything Glorious.
You make everything Glorious.
  And I am yours.

SO WHAT DOES THAT MAKE ME?

can you say ouch, crap, dang?

God just seems to be dropkicking me repeatedly with this...
He molded every part of me...He made me EXACTLY how He wanted me....
who am i to say that He didnt do good enough?
who am i to say that He didnt do this or that right?
who am i to critique HIS creation?

---ouch, crap, dang.

so my prayer this week...and for my life...
is for me to be happy with how the KING does things...
Cause... He definately knows better than a simpleminded human like me...

Thank you, Papa, for exactly how you created me. Thank you for every hair on my head. Thank you for the way my hands move and the way my heart beats. Thank you for my little ears and my big nose. Thank you for whoever may read my blog. God, i pray that you will help them with whatever they are going through. God, help them to realize that they are beautiful♥ *MEN CAN BE BEAUTIFUL TOO!*
Amen...

i'm finally learning to breathe...

do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires♥

In my small group, we are working through Elisabeth Elliot's Passion and Purity *wonderful book, just sayin*.
--anyways
God has been showing me a lot about myself throughout this semester:

• He has bigger plans for me than i could possibly imagine
• He knows what he is doing.
• He doesnt OWE me a husband

and most importantly:

• I AM CURRENTLY NOT MATURE ENOUGH FOR A RELATIONSHIP!

well, what does the devil want!?
--for me to think that God doesnt have my life in His hands
--for me to think that God DOES owe me a husband.
and most importantly:
--THAT I AM MATURE ENOUGH FOR A RELATIONSHIP!

so what now you may ask?
-this boy has weaseled his way into my life.
he is extremely attractive
and super nice.
-Christian-

problem?
there is no mutual feelings whatsoever.
--i'm not his type.
thats fine with me.

other problem?
i cant get this kid out of my head.
--no really--i cant.

I know God wants what is best for me--and right now, i know that a relationship is definately not what is best. keep me in your prayers as i get over my "crush"

i'm learning to...
breathe.

country music can change a life♥

♫Toby Keith-My List♥
everyday i have a new list that i commit myself to completing. usually it consists of: quiet time, find and destroy the watch*because of this one, my list never gets done*, psychology notecards, other assorted homeworks, clean, laundry.
what ever happened to things like: relax, go for a walk, enjoy praising God--the Creator of everything in this world, take a nap, watch a movie, call a random person back home, volunteer to do something for someone else.
what is up with my lists?

there are so many more important things to do--i need to relax and learn to...
breathe.

i'm becoming that nerd who sits in a coffee shop and blogs--yay :)

This whole break from school thing has been beyond one of the hardest things to deal with--if you know my daddy...you know he is strong...
when i say strong...
i mean STRONG.
he never lets anyone see his pain...
or his fatigue...
--Lacking a better way to say it... i'll say this-- my daddy, he's not going to be around much longer.
my strong willed daddy...i dont think he will see another Thanksgiving...so trying to make this one his best has been a task...quite the task.
I know that God has a plan with everything...but i dont want Him to take him yet... i'm not ready for that.

And... my brother--my sweet little big brother (mentally--younger,age wise--older) is back in rehab.
why you may ask?
he tried to kill himself.
news to me--thanks family for letting your dear daughter know.
maybe this is the last straw? maybe this is God's way of getting ahold of him and telling him--look, here's the way--walk in it!
i can only hope.
again...God has a plan--but i dont like the way He executes those plans...

be in prayer for my family--life's hard... i'm learning to breathe♥